2008-10-26
hmmm, its been >1 wk since i last blogged. actualli i wanted to go slp alrdy cos having Great Eastern Women 10K Run in FEW HRs time. hahax. i'm crazy thou.
I jus happened to enter QY's diary jus nw & decided to blog this entry after finished reading hers. She wrote abt ADC's recent expedition on Gunung Stong. Ahh, those detailed descriptions made me feel like gg trekking. Gunung Stong was a tough trek for ADC-ians this yr. Besides Stong, they climbed Baha & Ayam in 3 consecutive days with their heavy bagpacks. They made it! I am so happy for them. I'm sure they will rmb what they went thru including all the hardships & sufferings. How i wish i was there. Missed out all the fun. I dun even know if i am able to survive thru those if I went. Hahas. Well, has been some time since my last trek. I missed TREKKING!!
I am nt a gd leader. I jus love to trek. I want to b back into the arms of nature. When will this happen? It doesnt matter to me if i were to slip, trip & fall agn & agn. I dun mind other ppl laughing at me or blaming me, saying "I tot trekking head can trek the best? Why you keep falling n falling? Your navigation sucks, lead us to go the wrong way." I jus wan to run away frm this materialistic world. I jus wan to hide myself whr nobody can find mi. but all these, will only happen in my dreams.
A thought just came to my mind: No matter hw you betray or abondon the MOUNTAINS, it will still stand tall & strong, awaiting for your return.
Tats probably 1 of the reasons why i rather choose to fall in love with mountains? Also, no matter hw others betray or abondon you, the mountains wun. I guess i have the freedom to choose to love trek, to love the mountains even though i m nt the best trekker. =))
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Jus nw chatted a little with Hong Wee. Asked him if my herbal tea gt pass a not. He replied: 'Herbal Tea of cos pass, with distinction. Its the effort n thought that counts.' Wahaha. Super happy de la!! =]]
Time stands still at 2:04:00 am
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2008-10-17
Current mood: slpy + some tiredness.
but i stil decided to write. =))
Recently, i am experiencing mixed feelings. I think there is sth wrong with me but i dunno wat. I behave strangely when it comes to certain stuffs.
Thinking back, is it a wise choice to put me as trek head for ADC? I feel lousy. I dun think i have accomplish anything. Esp. recently: I am given tasks to do yet I have been laying back, contributing nth useful to the club. "Its okay la cos u r having attachment mah.." Tats wat ppl told me, but i disagree. It is only an EXCUSE! I dunno why but it seems that i am juz nt 'moving'. Or mayb i am mentally worn-out after those 'tortures' i takeover from my seniors? Well, mayb nobody really knows what i am gg thru mentally.
I am always proud of my assigned post after ADC'08 commissioning. 1 of the reasons is becos i really love to trek & hope to climb as many mountains as I can, as long as I am alive (although i am nt the best trekker in my club). Sometimes I do feel being intimidated by my juniors. On the other hand, i am scare that i will brg down the club if I did not handle the tasks given well. Tats cos' I knew my seniors put in alot of efforts to establish gd reputations & practices for the future club members to continue & pass on. I hope by the end of my service term, i wun ruin any. =x
Nvm, think i shall cast the matter aside. What worth mentioning is that today, juz a few hrs ago, i finally felt some happiness in me. I felt that i've some motivation to continue agn.
Lastly, b4 i go off to slp and get ready for a mini test tml during attachment, below are fotos taken during dusk to dawn (AACV). Some of ADC peeps went as volunteers to help out. Joanne (frm SG Women's Everest Team), if u ever heard b4, organised this adventure race. I liked the way she manage everything. I think she is a gd role model to those adventurer-wannabe.
This is taken b4 the start of the race. CP2-rope ladder ascending. We are the so-called 'belayers'.
Min, Me & Eddry (What face is tat?)
At the roadside while waiting for transportation to another CP. We took some fotos in right middle of the road but i do not have them. Inside another person's camera. hahax. I still rmb we need to run back to the roadside when we saw vehicles nearing. Its fun!
At CP10 waiting for instructions by organiser. Look @ all the worn-out & shag 'bodies'. lolx. Only i the crazy 1 taking foto of them.
Oh btw, dusk to dawn is an adventure race that start at midnight & last all the way to the nxt morning. =))
Okay, shall update agn soon. =]
Time stands still at 1:48:00 am
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2008-10-11
After 6 wks of training, ytd we graduated frm CPTC.
I felt sad & happy at the same time. I really dun bear to leave that place. It is part of my life alrdy. but life gotta move on i guess.. In less than an hr leaving there, i started to miss my trainer- mr K alrdy. "Astro Boy" i call him, cos everytime when he take out his helmet after returning frm field, his hair look lik one. i still rmb the games that we played during night shift. The gun game : LOAD, PROTECT, "BANG". Never did i expect that all being eliminated so fast-in less than 5mins. hahax. In the end, with my "BANG" and his "LOAD", i WON the game! After that, i kept asking "Whr's my soup?' :)
He definitely is a GREAT COOK. i love the soup very much. Dun think i will have gt a 2nd chance to taste it anymore. ):
In the morning ytd, i saw him at the canteen. He asked me: "Have u saw ur rank yet?" In my brains, i thought: "Shit, dun tell mi i failed agn." (FYI, i failed my mid term exam. SO if i fail the final exam agn, i am nt gonna pass this training.) I replied: "Nope." so he ask me to go & check, after that 'COME & SEE ME!' Anxiously, i went to check for my rank, guess what? I passed. I went to look for him and he congrats me. [my ranking position jumped up 80+ places.] :)
Following that was the graduation ceremony.
After the grad ceremony ended, i am supposed to find him n return my PPE n locker key. So i did. After returning those stuffs, Xue Lian n I went inside his office to his desk. There, we gave him the presents we have prepared individually- just for him. I gave him an envelope inside containing the cards that i drew and 2 bottles of chinese herbal tea that i cooked. YES! U nv see wrongly! I COOKED it. hahax. I took down the photos of the cards that i drew. Only my sis saw it b4. Nobody else. so its a secret. i'm not gg to upload those. hahas. I can see that he appreciated my gift. I told him "No matter how horrible the 'poison' taste, u also MUST finish them! & inside the content inside the envelope is very ugly. So later when u open it dun b shocked.Haha." But he said something that i agree to: ' its the thought that counts.'
We took photos tgt. After that we chatted for awhile. Cant really rmb wholesale the content. Its abt some further studying stuff. but i rmb that i told him why i passed the final exam. I said: 'I do it for u.' Hmmm, sounds kinda wierd? I guess its becos i dun reali know how to express myself? but frm his eyes, i can see he knows what i am trying to brg across. :)
Before we go out of the office, i ask for SOMETHING frm him that i NEVER EVER thought i will. A HUG. He is very generous & gave ME a HUG. Thanks Hong Wee. :)
After leaving CPTC, i went town with my sisters-WL,JJ,QT. As usual, we live up to our names-to play n to eat. lolx. We went movie. Watched 'Painted Skin'. I wanted to watch very much n tadaa.. finally gt to view it. Thanks for gg along wif mi. :) I nv regret watching it. Its very nice. Something i like. Very touching too. Mayb qiuqiu n jj just ok with the content but i realli like it alot. that's maybe becos the feeling the actresses n actors trying brg across gt right into me. :)
Agrh. So many things happened but no time to blog.
2days ago, i had my NAPFA test. Results were out.. I am so HaPPY! i got GOLD for my test. Every stations including 2.4km run were 'A's. Except for standing broad jump. Gt a 'C' but was make me bothered abt is that i am only 1cm u know 1CM to 'B' grade. lolx.
Alrights. Will end here nw. I MISS HONG WEE. =
Time stands still at 3:11:00 pm
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2008-10-09
hmm, after quite some time, i finally created a blog. lolx.
blogging is a way of expressing yourself. to me, i guess its still hard. there are so many things gg thru my brains right at the moment, yet i do not know how to really phrase it out. but its ok! as long as i understand the feelings that are within me, its more than enuff. =)
Time stands still at 3:03:00 am
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